Wanting to do great things.

So what is this drive within me? That thing in the back of my mind that tells me I'm somehow "special." Why do I feel like I have a certain purpose in life that drives me to succeed in life in a way that means more than making a huge salary and being "successful?" Do I have a narcissistic personality disorder? I don't think so...

I've always felt as if I were someone important, but for what reason I could never explain. I'm not of some famous lineage of great people, I'm not a person destined for a particular seat of power, nor do I feel that I am better than anyone else. I'm just a normal guy that feels like I need to do something for this world other than grinding through the day-to-day monotony of providing for myself and my family. I feel the drive to do something great for the multitude of people surrounding me, those less fortunate than I.

But what is that purpose? What is my ultimate goal? The only conceivable answer I can summon is that only time will tell. My biggest fear is that I'll eventually reach a point where I realize that too much time has gone by, only leaving the practical prospect of realizing that I've been waiting for an answer that does not exist. Leaving my future in the hands of time may seem like a good idea at the moment, but what about the time I waste waiting for this magical answer to appear? Is there something I must do to make my goals materialize into a physical manifestation?

I may not have the answer now, but I'm left feeling optimistic of it's arrival. I just want to place my imprint upon this planet in a positive manner. No matter the scale, I must do something before leaving this planet to make a difference. The trick is finding the way to do it. I hope that one day I will realize my place in society and reach the potential I feel destined to attain.

Here's to realization of reality, and the courage to pursue it once it's found.